The Blank Page

Posted on February 8, 2013. Filed under: Running | Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , |

blank calendar

The page is almost full.  Next Sunday–in 9 days–I will be in Austin well before the sun comes up, running a half marathon, the first I have been able to run since February 2010.  At the end of the day, my last box will be checked.

When I posted my training plan on the side of my refrigerator just before Thanksgiving, the whiteness of the blank boxes and the progression of long-run miles daunted me. For a couple of weeks, I doubted I could actually do it.  Run a half marathon, geez.  What was I thinking? I hadn’t run that far in so long I found it hard to have faith in my ability to do it again.

Not only was the page too white, but there were lots of things that might get in the way of fulfilling my plan. Christmas, New Years, vacation, business trip, work. I had to remind myself that the holidays in particular were why I chose to run this particular half marathon at this particular time, why I chose to start training the week after Thanksgiving.  I chose.

I knew from past experience how closely aligned race training is with project planning. Life planning. You set a goal and a date, break it down into its parts, plant the tasks on a calendar, and check off each task as it’s complete, recording your rate of success. Focusing on the small chunks, one week at a time at most, one day at a time for certain, is what determines success. We only live one day at a time. It’s our responsibility to focus on the moment, perform to the best of our ability, because the moment is all we are guaranteed.

But for the past couple of weeks, I’ve been looking at my plan with a different eye. When I glance at it from across the kitchen, I no longer see an intimidating white page. My plan has almost reached fruition.  The boxes contain times and distances where I followed the plan, or diagonal lines where I didn’t.  I am no longer afraid of this page. Rather, I am proud. I have come so far, and there is visual proof to remind me.

training plan

When I look at my plan, penciled, erased, circled, used, I get excited.  Not only am I so close to reaching my goal, which is thrilling in itself, but I have had the joy (and pain) of reaching a goal every day.  I see the results on paper, certainly, but also in the mirror. I am not the same person who started this plan on November 26.  And I will be a different person again when I cross that finish line on February 17.

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I’m SOOO looking forward to hearing how it goes! 🙂

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Me too. 🙂

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Almost there. Know you will finish and continue on to bigger and better goals. 🙂 You can do it.

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